One week

So I can't decide whether or not I want to post something and I keep flitting from this page to something else, like Perez Hilton or googling random stupid things that pop into my head, but you know, the hardest thing to do is just start because once you START writing you can just pull a whole stream-of-conscious thing and ramble like I'm doing now and it's okay, it feels kind of good, and look I got the start out of the way, thank god. 

Today I worked and it wasn't good.  I stepped in reed diffuser oil and almost fell down, but on the plus side, my shoes now smell like Asian Spice. 

This weekend was nice sans not seeing Annie which is something that I've grown really accustomed to the past few (or 20) years of my life and it made me think: "This is what next year is going to be like except one-hundred percent worse."  Because now I see her at least once a week (praise the Lord for Wednesdays) and I see Janine at least twice a week (praise the Lord for correlating class schedules) and to go from that to nothing?  I don't know what I'm going to do with myself.  Melissa Babick will be back, so that'll be nice, but I think I'm going to have to extend my stay at State or get a boyfriend or find a really time-consuming hobby like cooking or mountain-climbing or stamp-collecting but really there's only so many cuisines or mountains or stamps.  I'm sure I'll get bored real quick with any of those things.  So boyfriend it is. 

Or I could always move.  Annie suggested living up North with her, but I don't want to cramp her style.  Susan seems to need a friend in Berkeley (I mean, really, REALLY need a friend...) so maybe I'll just throw myself upon her and enjoy a hippie Berkeley existance.  

I'm only going to be 20 for one more week and that's exciting but crazy and kind of weird because I'm never going to have a reason I can't do something ever again, except for letting Danny drive with just me because I'm not 22 yet, or rent a car because don't you have to be 25 for that or something?  Anyway, I think I'll miss not being able to say "I didn't do anything this weekend because I'm only 20, life is terrible, I can't wait to grow up."  I'll have to be more creative in my excuses for being incredibly homebodied or just honest and let people think what they will.  That's not to say I won't go out or have fun or drink or go to bars and shows and clubs, but it IS to say that I still really like nights in and sometimes, even a friday night on the couch can be a lot of fun.  

I wish I would start focusing on school, but when you're only there two days a week it's real easy to forget that I should be attentive to my studies.  I got a lot of reading done last semester because I was ON CAMPUS a lot last semester and I could sit in my little Mediterranean Grotto and listen to the crunching leaves underfoot or watch spring burst or hear little twittling birds or listen to the steady rhythm of the fountain and all of that made it so nice and easy to read and focus.  This semester I hardly have any off-time in between classes and I never go to campus to read on my days off because who likes to be at school when they don't have to?  So I think I'm getting dumber. 

Okay, it's 1:03 and I said things I wanted to say and I have class tomorrow that I didn't read for, but that's not really new.  Goodnight, goodnight, goodnight.

Active Discussion

Anon • May 20th 2012

Jeff Micklos • November 10th 2009 • Reply
I think "nights in" are completely underrated and I am glad you realize that. There is so much pressure to "get out and go do stuff" but I am just as happy sitting on sofa on a Friday night with my friends...

Annie! • November 10th 2009 • Reply
Word. All I ask is to not forget about the occasional friday night, like Janine did.

And Gina, you could never cramp my style, you would just add to it. Therefore, you must come up with me, rather than susan! If I am accepted and such yahyeahayeah

gina • November 10th 2009 • Reply
Annie, I'm sure that our Friday nights will continue as per normal. Unless there's a show or somefing that is real special that I get invited to.

Annie! • November 10th 2009 • Reply
GOOD, a loyal sister.

Annie! • November 10th 2009 • Reply
GOOD, a loyal sister.

gina • November 11th 2009 • Reply
Damn straight, I am.

Jeff Micklos • November 11th 2009 • Reply
It's been....
one week since you've looked at me
dropped your hands to your side and told me I was crazy(?)
one week since your living room(?)
something something something thats how we do(?)

remember that song?

gina • November 11th 2009 • Reply
YEAH I do.

It's been
one week since you looked at me
cocked your head to the side and said "I'm angry"
five days since you laughed at me,
saying "get that together, come back and see me"

Sadly, I knew these words by heart.
That song is in the very beginning of 10 Things I Hate About You. My title has a double meaning.