June 01, 2009
I've seen both sides to coffee
So the lady, who tried to cheat me out of money, and who cannot speak proper english, finally called me with the results.
No, not pregnancy test results or anything of that sort, but drug test results (much better.)
I'm clean, just as I had suspected, and now I can finally work out a schedule for when I will work both jobs. The only thing I can hope is that I will not have an emotional breakdown from overworking myself, and from not giving myself enough time for jeff, gina, katy, janine and others.
But getting my job back as a "body artist" might be the break I so desperately need, even though I have to wear ugly clothes.
Lately, for the past few weeks, I have been going into starbucks depressed because I do not want to be there and I do not want to go through the same daily routine. I'm tired of waking up so early that I have to consume excessive amounts of caffeine throughout the day to get me by, I know I could just nap, but I feel like I never have enough time.
I feel like I can never say what I mean to stupid customers who give me attitude, even though they are wrong and I am right (happened again today) because of our stupid policies. yeah I know they exist with every company, but honestly, why do we have to kiss each others asses all the fucking time?
I cannot wear nail polish, it is such a small thing but I want the freedom to do it, and I try my best until my manager asks what is on my fingernails. I respond with, "nothing, I just dipped them in chocolate bitch." she backs off until next time.
I have been doing small things to entertain myself, like making mystery drinks with a bunch of syrup flavors and making my coworkers drink them.
Also, I make rhyms for them.
Little things get me through my shifts.
I've been looking on craigslist for new jobs, possibly one where I can make posters or design things, but a lot of them require a bit of experience in HTML and others. SO I am going to take a class at grossmont this coming semester, jeff seemed super excited, and I am to because I want to see how everything works.
I had coffee with Juan, as gina mentioned, and it reconfirmed our fading relationship. I was kind of pessimistic about the thought of seeing him. I thought it was going to be just him and I, but no, he brought her, his best friend who I cannot stand. Although juan and I are in the stages of breaking up, I would have preferred to only see him. My eyes were getting heavy participating and listening to their conversation, maybe if I had gotten more sleep I would have cared about the conversations we had, but probably not. The whole time I was either judging Juans situation, going crazy with two powerful personalities or wishing I was hanging out with gina and natalie. I felt like a bitch the whole night because i've changed and they haven't and I feel like they might have left with the same feeling I had.
Happier note.
This was when Jeff and I went to little Italy. He got a few rolls of film developed, we got burritos, witnessed a giant tour guide with headsets, and hung out downtown.
Last night, Jeff and I went to Kensington, only to find the coffee shop we go to completely transformed into an empty, lighter, and artless place. But, I kind of miss the wall color and everything that fit between them. Now it is kind of dead. We walked around kensington in the cold, with good conversation, god it felt so good. Maybe because it reminded me of walking together in san francisco, but not as cold, as well as winter time. But it could be just walking outside in the evening in the cold because it reminds me of walking around balboa park with Jeff, as well, and the good memories of our first date.
Which by the way...
Jeff and I have been dating for a little over One year now.
AHhhh I am SO SO Happy!
And for our anniversary we went to a Beautiful restaurant, got delicious gelato, went to the living room, then back to Jeffs house.
I'm sure jeff will post with pictures soon and explain it better than I can.
Massive post, Over.
Two A's so far, waiting for two more.
Active Discussion
Jeff Micklos • June 1st 2009 • Reply
1. I can think of a better job which would also give you the title of "body artist." GET IT!?
2. It sounds like you are cheating on me with Juan, which is kind of funny. It is okay if you are, though, because you are going to break up with him and that is the respectful thing to do for me...
3. I am glad you were able to take a photo of me with flowers in my hair and super white vampire skin. My true essence.
4. You know you liked walking around Kensington because it reminded you of walking around San Francisco with Juan. Don't lie, Annie... I see right through your "break up" with him...
gina • June 1st 2009 • Reply
1) I'm sorry that you're not pregnant. It would be SWEET to have a baby to play with.
2) You really should just find a way to paint your nails with some sort of chocolate or sugar paint that you use on your cakes. That way, after you call your manager a bitch, you can lick your fingernails to show her that it's just sugar. Unhygienic, sassy and totally compliant to Starbucks rules. It's the best way to be.
3) Make ME a mystery drink!
4) You really should have come talked to Natalie and me. We had a nice time, and I wished you could have joined us.
5) GET ALL A's girl. DOOOOO it.